05. We ROCKED 2022!

 Hi folks!

I gotta say it’s been a very very long time. I couldn’t wait to share what’s happening in my life. I really missed you a lot. I’m so excited writing this and I want to say a lot of things. I think I’ve got so much going on, I just forgot all of you all. This is real raw and poorly edited cause that’s what I think is the most beautiful thing about these blogs. I have changed a lot since the last time we talked. My beliefs changed, met new people and learned a lot from them. I gotta say this year was one of the best years in my life and I mean it when I say it. Lots of new experiences, lots of mind blowing stuff and things I did which I never thought I’d ever do or never was brave enough to do. 

I learnt a big lesson about living life that confidence is really the biggest skill that a person needs to be great at. 

I mean I was the most confident this year in my entire life! I guess that’s just purely normal cause as humans we always just keep growing and become better year after year. However this year was just sooooooo different. I had moments that made me feel a little weird, little foolish, little angry, very confused and completely lost!! Ya that’s so true. I felt a little lost as I’ve put myself in uncomfortable situations and believed in myself and that helped me come over my subconscious self doubt. Not gonna lie but coming out of that comfort zone and changing many things about my personality was damn difficult. Now many of my closest friends are reading this right now and they might understand what I’m tryna say here cause with all the events that took place in my life in the last 18 months is just so overwhelming. I lost contact with many of my friends this year. My friends, I’ll always love you. I wish that you get all the success in life but my friend, living so far away from family and friends and living life by myself and trying be better everyday with the least support ever, and of course the time difference we have, it’s not been very easy to find time to chat with you. But these changes that came about in my life were difficult to adapt to. I am very grateful for all the success I got in my career, friends I made and life lessons I learnt, but all of this was not easy on me. I have kept myself from negativity and gained a lot of self confidence by beginning to think lesser and just doing more. I continue having some days like dude seriously, I feel so not me!! I feel that the old Sunny is not alive anymore and that scares me.

 

There’s tons of other important life lessons I was able to learn but the one I would like to share with you, and from deep within my heart want you to learn, is how important your family is. A couple of months ago, on Thanksgiving day, I had acute pain in my abdomen. Getting it checked, I got to know I had kidney stones. It was pretty painful to stay on meds, miss work and school and feel so helpless and having nobody by my side. Ah loved those times. But that’s too much sad stuff. I worked a lot on my communication skills and I’m so proud of my growth. I worked out a little and got in shape. Still got a lot to do but happy with where I stand. I changed my hairstyle, got a goatie and worked on my fashion. I had a lot of thinking over certain topics and it’s crazy how I changed my beliefs a lot. With all these things going on in my life, I’ve felt lost for days. The amount of change is just so scary. When I reflect on my old self I don’t feel like myself. I know this is just a phase and there’s no shortcut to come over it. But it’s just such a weird feeling. I tried being the same self but for my betterment I always figured that change was necessary. 

This year was a thrilling ride and in my reflection I say that I felt that change is weird, however good you may be adapting to it. I had fun and I wish to keep growing and experiencing new things daily. At the same time I wish everybody finds peace and love. 

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